Metameta - [2004-12-23]
Meta.
Meta-meta-meta-meta-meta.
You know, as in beyond, or at least one step above so then you can look down on the thing you want to refer to, to get all meta about. In a way I like self-referencing things, but sometimes I feel I overdo it, like with this entry or many other entries on this site. It seems as if I’m trying to avoid the real subject by talking about subjects in general. Okay, not quite, but whatever. The fact of the matter, at least as far as the matter that
’s concerned is this paragraph, is that there is no actual subject!
I really don’t have much to say about anything concrete. I’m, like, in abstract-outer-space-la-la land and I don’t expect anyone to actually understand what I’m saying. But I still try to explain, as futile as it may be. Well, sometimes I have specific everyday things to talk about, but more often than not, I’m thinking about what it means to think and instead of doing anything, all I do is think about the doing and think about what that does.
And just for the record, I’m not portraying my true feelings acurately here. It’s not so much my thoughts that keep me from grasping anything tangible. It’s when I try to express it in words that I get all vague and stuff. Plain normal English just doesn’t cut it. And I don’t know math that well. And even if I did, so what? Mostly everyone else doesn’t. Maybe I should be thankful I’m not Japanese. Supposedly, the Japanese language makes it harder to say specific things than English does. Maybe I’m wrong (In case this has been translated to another language, note that this was originally in English). Maybe I should learn German so I canmakeupmyownlongwordsenschlurgen (the “enschlurgen” part I just added for fun).
When I’m floating in outer space, I can go on forever. But that’s the problem, I guess. At least I can stop. For now.