I am in so much pain right now. Why? Fuck, I don’t know. Nothing really happened, at least not to me or to anyone in a way that would affect me. It doesn’t matter what happened exactly, believe me. What matters is that I feel something that I don’t feel I have a reason to feel. I know that you don’t need reasons to have emotions, but they are caused somehow. Except this pain that I feel. It’s not even because of any psychiatric disorders. No matter who I’d tell they wouldn’t be able to see why I’m feeling this. They might think that they have an idea but it’s little more than a facade.

I wish I was able to make more sense than I’m making now, I really do. All I can hope is that someone finds this interesting in whatever way. If this was written by someone else and I saw it, I would probably scoff at it. Seriously. Unless I’m being too hard on myself right now. Pain does that, you know.

All I can do for the time being is write these words. No sympathetic ears are available. I’m constantly trying to figure it out but I feel like I’m going around in circles. Maybe it’s an upward spiral. Or downward.

I just realized that my younger brother and cousin reads this. Yes laugh, guys, laugh. Get your own fucking web site why don’t you. Talk about your Pokemons and Super Mega Advanced Game Boy. Go away : þ

Tommorow’s a new day. Hopefully.